16th December

It's official, this Thursday (16th December 2010) my S.A.C.E results will be released online at 8 A.M Adelaide, Australian time, which is approximately 5.30 A.M Malaysian time. 

It all boils down to this. I've been trying to gauge what sort of result I'd get. Just so I won't be caught off guard in an unpleasant way. It makes me laugh that I actually applied for psychology to ALL of the universities. What a joke. Me, a shrink. 

*sigh*

Been sleeping on the floor. Reminds me of college where I just can't bear sleeping on the bed unless it's night time because of the heat. Hence, I'm pretty darn sore. Keeps myself from thinking of depressive shit too much. Also, mom's been shouting at me a lot these days. Nothing new but I don't know, I just wish we're not heading to a point of no return. It's like, she's either mad at me for some shit I said or did/didn't do or simply civil. She hates my guts and I? Just don't care anymore. The only solution I see is to not talk to her too much because if we do, 60% of the time she get's pissed off. Heck, she even goes ballistic if I don't talk to her. 

I'm the 'difficult' middle child. It's probably an occupational hazard. Certainly, I'm the one at fault because she's the parent. Children are ingrates. To blame parents for their lack of whatever? is a lost cause. So I give up. I just pray (somewhat half-heartedly) that things will turn out to be better and that I'd stop being such a miscreant. It'd be nice if I could resign from being the Black Sheep of the family and be more like my brothers.

Haha, some depressive shit this has turned out to be. I'm done. Aaahh, let's just have a cheesy somewhat funny song now. Robert Downey Jr. lip syncing Elton John's 'I Want Love'. Ain't a parody, it's the real MV.