The Self & Knowledge

"To be imprisoned behind bars is a loss, but to be imprisoned by one's own desires and to become a slave to one's self is the ultimate loss."        ~ Yasir Qadhi ~

This had me thinking my motivations over. Am I in the wrong all along? Is my so-called 'dream' to become what I want to be (which, is not what I'm currently doing) mere obstinacy? One of the many foolish desires of a blinded heart? Perhaps everybody's been right all along. Maybe what's chosen for me now is all I'm ever going to be and really is what's best for me.

But...isn't that in a way fatalistic? Of course, it may very well be acceptance. The good variation of surrendering oneself into the hands that breathed one into life in the first place. 

Maybe all this is just a test. An adversity, a lesson, a challenge. Something that is to make me a better person. A detour of sorts, a phase to accumulate experience and wisdom. I should be steadfast, shouldn't I?

It can't be obstinacy. I hope not.

For the time being, I'll just keep this in mind:

"Knowledge is not what is memorised. Knowledge is what benefits."

~ Yasir Qadhi ~