Lovely You

“Hey, hey Jimmy, wake up. We’re gonna be late.”

“What time is it?” He groaned.

“A quarter to we-should-be-leaving-now.”

“Alright, alright. Don’t be snarly.”

You lovely you, I’m telling you, I love you. Can’t you wait for me, honey? Listen to me, baby. You, you, just you. I want you, only you. I’m telling you, I love you.

“I think you took a wrong turn just now. We’re supposed to go left. I think.”

“Shut up. You and your ‘My left and my other left’ don’t know nothing.”

“God, sometimes I think you really do hate me, you know that?”

“...”

The stars in your eyes, I want them. The skies in your smiles, I need them. You, you, lovely you, be my stars, be my skies. I’m telling you, I want you, oh I need you.

“C’mon man, where’re we going?”

“Somewhere we should’ve gone a long time ago.”

“Fuck you! Tell me! I’m not some kid you push around in a park! Tell me!”

“No that was me, remember? Besides, I think you know already.”

I could see his adam’s apple bob up and down as he swallowed. His eyes wide with fear. Beautiful.

These roses, just for you. Not red, not white, but blue, Just like you want them to be. You you, lovely you, Say you love me too. Like these roses, I will be. Anything you want me, I will be.

“I think I’m coming down with something. Let’s go back. Please, let’s go home.” His voice quivered.

“No.”

“I’m sick goddammit! I think I’m gonna- ” He vomited out the window, all over the side of my car.

“Yea, that’s right. We are both sick.” I said quietly.

I glanced at the side mirror. The side of the car stayed clean.

Baby, baby what do you want from me? What can I do to make you want me? Just tell me, I’ll make you happy. Because, you, you, lovely, you, I want you and only you.

“You can’t do this to me. Us, you can’t do this to us.” He begged.

“I’m in charge now.”

“No, you’re not!” He grabbed my wrists, the car swerved, the tyres shrieked.

“Oh, no you don’t.” I said through clenched teeth.

“NOOOOO!” He screamed.

I stopped screaming.

The falling sensation overwhelmed everything. I glanced at Jimmy.

I laughed.

I was alone.

You, you lovely you.